Joyce’s Mom will probably eventually get brain cancer, and some of her last words will be about Trump only *faking* his death from cardiac arrest, and how he’ll soon be world president.
Felian
i had to google that. i thought it was real and he was dead. why you play with my feelings like that
I think that Dorothy resubmitted her application and then had a moment of clarity. Does she want to be the person who leverages a situation that resulted in 3 people dying (even if more didn’t die because of her action) to get ahead? I don’t think so, not that way. If Yale had contacted her first on their own, I think she might feel differently. But going to them herself to ask for reconsideration crossed a line that she didn’t realize until after she wrote. It may be imposter syndrome, or simply wanting to earn it herself because of her own achievements.
And she does care about her friends, even if they do annoy the crap out of her. Leaving them now is not what she really wants to do. We’ve seen other people growing and changing, for good and ill. Why not Dorothy too?
I think it’s actually less that SHE crossed a line (she’s a freshman looking to get ahead) and more that THEY crossed a line. And she knew they would cross it, she expected them to cross it, it’s why she resubmitted. But it still hit different when they actually did and it was in front of her face.
She feels it’s like the “my roommate died so I get all As” myth except it actually happened to her
I suppose I would feel exactly the same way she did if, instead of just being mildly injured, my mother had died in that uninsured motorist accident, and I ended up squandering my college education fund by the settlement for that
(except that I found out after graduation that that’s how my parents paid so it wouldn’t matter either way but I’d feel a little bad)
I think Dorothy is going to go into a big speech about her reasons that will make her seem self-sacrificing and noble but she doesn’t want to admit the REAL reason: that she doesn’t want to leave her friends. That wouldn’t be Presidential and logical like all her decisions.
And like Danny at the beginning of the story she is going to give up her dreams for them, something no-one wants or asked for.
I’m hoping her friends can rally around for her and help her out here. Or she’ll be driving her kids off a cliff after another decade of self-sacrifice.
Given Becky and her friends wouldn’t WANT her to do that, I’m not sure how therapeutic it is.
JRivest
I don’t think she wants to stay because she feels like she needs to take care of her friends, though perhaps she would frame it this way. I think she loves her friends and enjoys seeing them every day. She wouldn’t be staying for them. She’d be staying for her.
I also don’t think going to Yale is ESSENTIAL or even NECESSARY for her career plans.
I don’t think it’s self-sacrificing and noble. I think it’s that every time she looks at the acceptance letter she gets flashbacks and she’s not looking forward to how it will be when she’s actually there.
He would mock her mercilessly for this weird sacrifice that no one wants.
BadRoad
He would absolutely mock her regardless of her decision and changing her mind would only make him mock her harder.
Wraithy2773
He’d do both, 100%.
SDRainbow
It’s okay if no one “wants” this sacrifice. I can’t fault her for not wanting Yale acceptance purchased with the blood of villains, even if to ME that sounds metal as fuck.
jflb96
If you look at it, the white Yank mostly paying in villain’s blood is almost a step up
Even her parents know her as the “responsible one” its a lot of pressure to always be the one being responsible. She probably needs to let go now and again and let someone else take the reins, like just let someone organise an activity or something that she’s not in charge of.
I think a lot of people knew she was not coping well, just many of us discounted how related to her trauma it’d be.
Reaver
Which is strange considering how often Joyce, Becky, Amber and even Walky gets mentioned being traumatized by it but people forget that Dorothy and Sarah were there too for a dose of trauma as well.
RassilonTDavros
I think that’s at least partially down to the fact that the pre-timeskip years already prime the audience to think of Joyce, Becky, Amber and (to a lesser extent) Walky as “characters with trauma,” but not as much to think of Dorothy and Sarah that way. Sarah’s got the backstory with Dana and the Raidah Gang, but as the years rolled on that got touched on less and less. Walky’s a bit of an outlier, given that “tragic backstory” was more often Sal’s department, but his having been Mike’s roommate accounts for a lot of that.
khn0
pre-time skip Dorothy already had to cope with rapist assaulting and being stabbed several times, no?
jflb96
Don’t think she was ever stabbed, just that she saw Amber do some stabbing
khn0
I was saying the assaulter was stabbed. You may be OK with retribution, it’s still violence that you have to cope with.
Sirksome
Dorothy didn’t get stabbed but “Ryan” was definitely going to stab her. That alone is enough to be traumatic. Y’know on top of watching Amber cut up the guy.
Yeah, but when a character acts like they have things under control, you can sometimes forget that “Oh yeah they probably were affected”
Heck, happens in real life too. Person acts stoic then “out of nowhere” shows cracks, causing people to go, “Oh crap right you were part of that. That all was… A front. Crap”
I have no doubt that Dorothy’s stated reasoning played a role in her decision.
It’s also possible, as other commenters have pointed out, that she has additional reasons to stay in Indiana that she won’t admit to others or possibly even to herself. (She’s crumbling under the combined stress of school and surviving a violent assault, she doesn’t want to leave her friends / support network / familiar surroundings, etc.)
She’s suffering this internal turmoil as a result and doesn’t know what to do about any of it. But instead of telling her friends about her own problems, she commits to solving their problems.
Actions can have multiple equally true and valid motivations. I’d even go so far as to say MOST large actions (such as life changing decisions about where to go for education) usually have several motivations, including several that you aren’t consciously aware of or don’t consciously acknowledge (there is a distinction). Perhaps even all such actions have many motivations, I’ve certainly never done anything major for only one reason, but I cannot discount the possibility that somebody, somewhere has.
Just because other obvious motivations exist does not make the ones stated here untrue or invalid, these ones were clearly chosen to paint a specific picture and lead to certain conclusions while leaving out other important pieces of the puzzle, but that doesn’t mean they weren’t a significant factor in Dorothy’s consideration.
justin8448
Yeah, I suspect they’re all true reasons.
The problem is that so far she’s only talking about / admitting to one of them. :-\
I mean that’s very blatantly what it is. Girls been spiraling. I think a lot of people miss that Dorothy is just as deeply traumatized as the rest of the group. Hell being the one to take charge and lead them out of a hostage situation might have given her the subconscious instinct of “if i don’t take control now everyone will die.” Which is irrational but, y’know trauma responses usually are.
I think she’s very Princess Carolyn. “My life’s a mess right now and i compulsively take care of others when i can’t take care of myself.”
Good thing she’s telling Becky, the person must equipped to tell her that refusing Yals won’t do anything to help the victims of that day. Right, Becky? Right?
I really do want Becky to light her up for that. It’s a futile and wasteful gesture of martyrdom, and the people more directly impacted by those events will not benefit from it at all. Climb down off the cross, we need the wood, kind of thing.
Needfuldoer
Yeah, that speech is long overdue.
elebenty
I had never heard that phrase, pope. In digging, I was doubly pleased to see it in a movie quote from 1992 …by Dolly Parton (Straight Talk).
Loved the banter, you can hear her voice: ‘Dr.’ Shirlee Kenyon (Dolly): Why even the Declaration of Independence only guaranties life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It doesn’t say anything about fair. Doesn’t even say you have the right to be happy. Just to pursue it.
Female Caller: But no one appreciates me, and I try to be fair, and they don’t…
‘Dr.’ Shirlee Kenyon: Get down off the cross honey, somebody needs the wood!
It’s not about helping the victims. It’s because she doesn’t want to be accepted BECAUSE of that. That event was significantly traumatic for her and her friends and she immediately spun it around as a tool to get ahead in life. And I guess that grossed herself out.
and that’s how politics works.
but she doesn’t want to be a real politician, she wants to be the kind that only exists in movies and TV and the dreams of naive young people.
Regalli
Oh that is DEFINITELY what she wants and she still seems to think “I want to be a politician” given the laundry scene a few days ago and “Mike Pence made it to the White House like this”, and ugh, it will HURT when she realizes that no, she truly doesn’t want to be the kind of person who can be a successful politician.
Kimi
She might get away being in a more local position with that kid of inhibitions, maybe even up to governor depending on the state. The more money and power are involved, the more likely corruption will be a big problem.
Regalli
I’ve seen people suggest she’d do much better as a judge than a president, and I’m inclined to agree. They certainly aren’t immune to corruption and are often elected, but they don’t have to be making quite the same moral tradeoffs to get things done on a regular basis, and they don’t need to bank on their charisma to get positions the same way a presidential candidate in particular needs to.
But ultimately, I think Dorothy’s likely to be someone who’d have trouble working within the system as it currently exists, too. She’s got a strong sense of her own morals and wants to make the world better, and that means when she comes up against the corruption and the way the system’s so thoroughly stacked against people, it’d hit her pretty dang hard.
In other words, as I said downthread (before the refresher, though,) Dorothy saw Ross take a lethal blow, she saw him get back up and attack Blaine, and she’s the one who directed the others to leave them fighting it out and go rather than try and stop Ross being murdered. (How would this have worked? Probably it wouldn’t, and probably instead of incapacitating both of the kidnappers, they would all have been screwed. But I can see Trauma Brain reinterpreting it as “I chose to leave a man to die and spun this into an acceptance to Yale, and oh no I don’t like this.”)
Meagan
Another insightful comment and thanks for the relevant citation!
SDRainbow
I reread the arc – which, woof, is a lot – and Dorothy is clearly trying to manipulate Blaine and Toedad against each other, and then when the hammer falls she realizes what she’s done.
So even before the big “time to escape” moment, she probably is taking on some guilt for causing the violence to start.
Regalli
Oh, oof, yeah, that is what’s going on there and you’re right. OW.
Granted, “Ross believes Amber when she says she’s AG / Blaine wanted Amber THERE and refuses to believe her” probably would’ve ended terribly either way, but. Ouch. Yeah rereading it knowing how it ends… yeesh, no wonder she’s traumatized over this and doesn’t want to go to Yale for it.
Mark
It doesn’t even have to be that. National leaders sometimes have to make decisions in which every choice is lethal or destructive for someone else. And not everyone can accept that level of responsibility. Even if Dorothy thinks she made the right choice, I can understand her not wanting to ever again have to decide who will die.
264 thoughts on “Accepted”
Ana Chronistic
“so if you want me gone, you’ll have to help me, like, oust Ron DeSantis”
Ana Chronistic
Patreon comment that I hate just reposting but folks seemed to like it:
“I’m holding out for Joyce’s mom’s death”
…
wait no
Amós Batista
hold on
Twitcher
Joyce’s Mom will probably eventually get brain cancer, and some of her last words will be about Trump only *faking* his death from cardiac arrest, and how he’ll soon be world president.
Felian
i had to google that. i thought it was real and he was dead. why you play with my feelings like that
shadowcell
is that not its own reward
Spriteless Aunty
That’s not the reason I was expecting. But it fits the persona she projects.
Bryy
I was not expecting that amount of introspection from Dorothy. Not at all.
eh, whatever
To me it looks more like imposter syndrome.
Ntrovert
I think that Dorothy resubmitted her application and then had a moment of clarity. Does she want to be the person who leverages a situation that resulted in 3 people dying (even if more didn’t die because of her action) to get ahead? I don’t think so, not that way. If Yale had contacted her first on their own, I think she might feel differently. But going to them herself to ask for reconsideration crossed a line that she didn’t realize until after she wrote. It may be imposter syndrome, or simply wanting to earn it herself because of her own achievements.
And she does care about her friends, even if they do annoy the crap out of her. Leaving them now is not what she really wants to do. We’ve seen other people growing and changing, for good and ill. Why not Dorothy too?
Liliet
I think it’s actually less that SHE crossed a line (she’s a freshman looking to get ahead) and more that THEY crossed a line. And she knew they would cross it, she expected them to cross it, it’s why she resubmitted. But it still hit different when they actually did and it was in front of her face.
Mark
I think I missed the part where leading a number of people to safety is not an achievement.
Leaders don’t provide perfection. They provide decisiveness and direction. Lead well a high enough proportion of the time and you are a good leader.
I respect Dorothy’s opinion here but I don’t share it.
Ana Chronistic
She feels it’s like the “my roommate died so I get all As” myth except it actually happened to her
I suppose I would feel exactly the same way she did if, instead of just being mildly injured, my mother had died in that uninsured motorist accident, and I ended up squandering my college education fund by the settlement for that
(except that I found out after graduation that that’s how my parents paid so it wouldn’t matter either way but I’d feel a little bad)
C.T. Phipps
I think Dorothy is going to go into a big speech about her reasons that will make her seem self-sacrificing and noble but she doesn’t want to admit the REAL reason: that she doesn’t want to leave her friends. That wouldn’t be Presidential and logical like all her decisions.
Vanessa
And like Danny at the beginning of the story she is going to give up her dreams for them, something no-one wants or asked for.
I’m hoping her friends can rally around for her and help her out here. Or she’ll be driving her kids off a cliff after another decade of self-sacrifice.
Needfuldoer
Dorothy’s bound to be a listless empty-nester someday, but that day should be in her 50s or 60s, not because she left all her friends behind.
(I mean “listless” as in low-energy and unmoored, she’s still going to make plenty of lists.)
Bryy
I actually do think this is the real reason.
I also think this is therapeutic for her.
C.T. Phipps
Given Becky and her friends wouldn’t WANT her to do that, I’m not sure how therapeutic it is.
JRivest
I don’t think she wants to stay because she feels like she needs to take care of her friends, though perhaps she would frame it this way. I think she loves her friends and enjoys seeing them every day. She wouldn’t be staying for them. She’d be staying for her.
I also don’t think going to Yale is ESSENTIAL or even NECESSARY for her career plans.
Liliet
I don’t think it’s self-sacrificing and noble. I think it’s that every time she looks at the acceptance letter she gets flashbacks and she’s not looking forward to how it will be when she’s actually there.
crow
But this decision isn’t Presidential or logical either. Do you think politicians care why they win elections?
Sirksome
Meh. Get what you can girl. Keep chasing the bag. Mike at least would be cool about it.
Reltzik
He’d make biting sarcastic comments about her doing it to make her feel guilty.
…. not because he cared, but he’d sense the vulnerability. Sharks, blood, you know how it goes.
Vanessa
He would mock her mercilessly for this weird sacrifice that no one wants.
BadRoad
He would absolutely mock her regardless of her decision and changing her mind would only make him mock her harder.
Wraithy2773
He’d do both, 100%.
SDRainbow
It’s okay if no one “wants” this sacrifice. I can’t fault her for not wanting Yale acceptance purchased with the blood of villains, even if to ME that sounds metal as fuck.
jflb96
If you look at it, the white Yank mostly paying in villain’s blood is almost a step up
Icalasari
And now I am re-evaluating all the smothery stuff Dorothy has done as some sort of trauma response
Sirksome
You’re just now re-evaluating that. It was pretty clear from the start she was not okay. She just feels like she has to be the okay one.
Vanessa
Yup, Dorothy is really not OK.
Shade
Even her parents know her as the “responsible one” its a lot of pressure to always be the one being responsible. She probably needs to let go now and again and let someone else take the reins, like just let someone organise an activity or something that she’s not in charge of.
DailyBrad
I think a lot of people knew she was not coping well, just many of us discounted how related to her trauma it’d be.
Reaver
Which is strange considering how often Joyce, Becky, Amber and even Walky gets mentioned being traumatized by it but people forget that Dorothy and Sarah were there too for a dose of trauma as well.
RassilonTDavros
I think that’s at least partially down to the fact that the pre-timeskip years already prime the audience to think of Joyce, Becky, Amber and (to a lesser extent) Walky as “characters with trauma,” but not as much to think of Dorothy and Sarah that way. Sarah’s got the backstory with Dana and the Raidah Gang, but as the years rolled on that got touched on less and less. Walky’s a bit of an outlier, given that “tragic backstory” was more often Sal’s department, but his having been Mike’s roommate accounts for a lot of that.
khn0
pre-time skip Dorothy already had to cope with rapist assaulting and being stabbed several times, no?
jflb96
Don’t think she was ever stabbed, just that she saw Amber do some stabbing
khn0
I was saying the assaulter was stabbed. You may be OK with retribution, it’s still violence that you have to cope with.
Sirksome
Dorothy didn’t get stabbed but “Ryan” was definitely going to stab her. That alone is enough to be traumatic. Y’know on top of watching Amber cut up the guy.
https://www.dumbingofage.com/2017/comic/book-7/03-the-thing-i-was-before/directory/
Icalasari
Yeah, but when a character acts like they have things under control, you can sometimes forget that “Oh yeah they probably were affected”
Heck, happens in real life too. Person acts stoic then “out of nowhere” shows cracks, causing people to go, “Oh crap right you were part of that. That all was… A front. Crap”
justin8448
It may still fit though. The trauma response.
I have no doubt that Dorothy’s stated reasoning played a role in her decision.
It’s also possible, as other commenters have pointed out, that she has additional reasons to stay in Indiana that she won’t admit to others or possibly even to herself. (She’s crumbling under the combined stress of school and surviving a violent assault, she doesn’t want to leave her friends / support network / familiar surroundings, etc.)
She’s suffering this internal turmoil as a result and doesn’t know what to do about any of it. But instead of telling her friends about her own problems, she commits to solving their problems.
Dorothy!!! 🙁
Psychie
Actions can have multiple equally true and valid motivations. I’d even go so far as to say MOST large actions (such as life changing decisions about where to go for education) usually have several motivations, including several that you aren’t consciously aware of or don’t consciously acknowledge (there is a distinction). Perhaps even all such actions have many motivations, I’ve certainly never done anything major for only one reason, but I cannot discount the possibility that somebody, somewhere has.
Just because other obvious motivations exist does not make the ones stated here untrue or invalid, these ones were clearly chosen to paint a specific picture and lead to certain conclusions while leaving out other important pieces of the puzzle, but that doesn’t mean they weren’t a significant factor in Dorothy’s consideration.
justin8448
Yeah, I suspect they’re all true reasons.
The problem is that so far she’s only talking about / admitting to one of them. :-\
zee
I mean that’s very blatantly what it is. Girls been spiraling. I think a lot of people miss that Dorothy is just as deeply traumatized as the rest of the group. Hell being the one to take charge and lead them out of a hostage situation might have given her the subconscious instinct of “if i don’t take control now everyone will die.” Which is irrational but, y’know trauma responses usually are.
I think she’s very Princess Carolyn. “My life’s a mess right now and i compulsively take care of others when i can’t take care of myself.”
Liliet
Mhm
The Wellerman
“Make life rue the day it thought it could give Dorothy Keener lemons!!!!”
True Survivor
“I’ll burn you house down! With the Lemons! I’ll get Carla to build a combustible lemon that burns your house down!!!”
Leorale
Dorothy no
Good thing she’s telling Becky, the person must equipped to tell her that refusing Yals won’t do anything to help the victims of that day. Right, Becky? Right?
Leorale
*most equipped
*refusing Yale
Dana
My first reaction was “okay, so that’s why Becky is the first to know. You know, plot reasons.”
Axel
Also Becky’s level of tact(lessness) means she will probably outrightly say “that’s dumb” and argue it, rather than leaving it alone
Vanessa
Let’s hope so! Come on Becky!
pope suburban
I really do want Becky to light her up for that. It’s a futile and wasteful gesture of martyrdom, and the people more directly impacted by those events will not benefit from it at all. Climb down off the cross, we need the wood, kind of thing.
Needfuldoer
Yeah, that speech is long overdue.
elebenty
I had never heard that phrase, pope. In digging, I was doubly pleased to see it in a movie quote from 1992 …by Dolly Parton (Straight Talk).
Loved the banter, you can hear her voice:
‘Dr.’ Shirlee Kenyon (Dolly): Why even the Declaration of Independence only guaranties life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It doesn’t say anything about fair. Doesn’t even say you have the right to be happy. Just to pursue it.
Female Caller: But no one appreciates me, and I try to be fair, and they don’t…
‘Dr.’ Shirlee Kenyon: Get down off the cross honey, somebody needs the wood!
Bryy
Given how Becky has seemingly dealt with it so far, mainly by blatantly saying Joyce over-reacted, I’m inclined to agree. I really hope not, though.
Yotomoe
It’s not about helping the victims. It’s because she doesn’t want to be accepted BECAUSE of that. That event was significantly traumatic for her and her friends and she immediately spun it around as a tool to get ahead in life. And I guess that grossed herself out.
StClair
and that’s how politics works.
but she doesn’t want to be a real politician, she wants to be the kind that only exists in movies and TV and the dreams of naive young people.
Regalli
Oh that is DEFINITELY what she wants and she still seems to think “I want to be a politician” given the laundry scene a few days ago and “Mike Pence made it to the White House like this”, and ugh, it will HURT when she realizes that no, she truly doesn’t want to be the kind of person who can be a successful politician.
Kimi
She might get away being in a more local position with that kid of inhibitions, maybe even up to governor depending on the state. The more money and power are involved, the more likely corruption will be a big problem.
Regalli
I’ve seen people suggest she’d do much better as a judge than a president, and I’m inclined to agree. They certainly aren’t immune to corruption and are often elected, but they don’t have to be making quite the same moral tradeoffs to get things done on a regular basis, and they don’t need to bank on their charisma to get positions the same way a presidential candidate in particular needs to.
But ultimately, I think Dorothy’s likely to be someone who’d have trouble working within the system as it currently exists, too. She’s got a strong sense of her own morals and wants to make the world better, and that means when she comes up against the corruption and the way the system’s so thoroughly stacked against people, it’d hit her pretty dang hard.
The Wellerman
Yup. Now she’s forced to face the cruel reality of a broken system that brings the worst out of everyone involved.
“All that is solid melts into air” indeed.
Psychie
Technically that’d be sublimation, not melting.
Keulen
The system isn’t broken, it’s working as intended. It just works for the rich, not us.
APW
She clearly can’t stomach acting like a politician. I wonder if she’s made this connection and reconsidered the presidency thing yet.
Regalli
Yeah, especially since the moment where we most clearly see her take initiative is this one:
https://www.dumbingofage.com/2020/comic/book-10/03-when-it-crumbles/moment-2/
In other words, as I said downthread (before the refresher, though,) Dorothy saw Ross take a lethal blow, she saw him get back up and attack Blaine, and she’s the one who directed the others to leave them fighting it out and go rather than try and stop Ross being murdered. (How would this have worked? Probably it wouldn’t, and probably instead of incapacitating both of the kidnappers, they would all have been screwed. But I can see Trauma Brain reinterpreting it as “I chose to leave a man to die and spun this into an acceptance to Yale, and oh no I don’t like this.”)
Meagan
Another insightful comment and thanks for the relevant citation!
SDRainbow
I reread the arc – which, woof, is a lot – and Dorothy is clearly trying to manipulate Blaine and Toedad against each other, and then when the hammer falls she realizes what she’s done.
So even before the big “time to escape” moment, she probably is taking on some guilt for causing the violence to start.
Regalli
Oh, oof, yeah, that is what’s going on there and you’re right. OW.
Granted, “Ross believes Amber when she says she’s AG / Blaine wanted Amber THERE and refuses to believe her” probably would’ve ended terribly either way, but. Ouch. Yeah rereading it knowing how it ends… yeesh, no wonder she’s traumatized over this and doesn’t want to go to Yale for it.
Mark
It doesn’t even have to be that. National leaders sometimes have to make decisions in which every choice is lethal or destructive for someone else. And not everyone can accept that level of responsibility. Even if Dorothy thinks she made the right choice, I can understand her not wanting to ever again have to decide who will die.
Nicoleandmaggie
Wow this thread. Definitely insightful.
Meagan