I need to use this information to achieve immortality for myself. Now who is the closest person to me who is also a lesbian *checks*. It’s my mother in law…. Well I’m screwed, lol
I think that not having a chance and/or not being able to do anything to prevent it was really painful for her, so she really can’t bare the thought of not being able to do anything here.
I don’t think there’s been anything to suggest that she blames herself (so far, at least), though it’s possible she blames herself for not seeing some kind of red flag that would have allowed to do something before it was too late, whether or not there actually were any signs she could have noticed. 🙁
Leorale
That would also make sense. Must watch for super-hidden and possibly non-existent indications that you’re gonna die!
I know a highschooler who is privy to his dad’s suicidal ideation. That’s gotta be intense.
Tan
From my own experience, when you lose someone you care about to suicide, there is ALWAYS an aspect of blaming yourself, albeit not necessarily in so many words. If only I’d listened better. If only I’d picked up on signs quicker. If only I’d been there with them at that exact moment. If only I’d said one more exact right thing, given one more hug, made them smile one more time.
At least that’s how I feel, and I’ve only ever lost friends. I can only imagine the feeling if it were immediate family.
*hugs* And yeah, suicide is one of those things that trigger survivor’s guilt and self-blame hard, because it’s really easy to pour over your actions or their actions for those little moments “you should have seen” or “should have been there for”. I kick myself enough for missing attempts by friends and students of mine, so I can’t imagine how much it must hit to feel one missed a completed suicide.
And for Becky it is so much worse, because a) she lived with her mom and spent almost all of her time with her being educated and raised, so the windows for Bonnie to have taken those pills and to have taken those pills long enough to have died because of complications in the hospital must have been very small, b) Becky obviously cared a ton in those ghost panels at her house for her and Bonnie was probably the thing that protected her from as much of Toedad’s abuse that she could by accepting the brunt of it, so losing her mom wasn’t just losing her mom, but also the only thing that protected her from her dad, and c) She was the one to find her and it was too late. Like, holy shit, to be the one to find her, to think you had a chance, that you may have found her in time, she’s at the hospital and she’s hanging on by a thread, and then, nope, no you didn’t? Holy crap, that’d break a lot of people.
No wonder her mask is fully cracked by the last panel.
I find that explanation a little bit too – static for the Toedad side.
Bonnie’s death definitely had a lot of impact on Toedad and may be the final impulse that pushed him over the cliff.
He was a fundie nut before the death of his wife, but visit a school campus with a rifle presumably would not have happened then.
Oh, I think he definitely got worse. But I think him striking Becky was too casual and easy for it to be something that only started once Bonnie had died. Plus, it’s canon that he’s been hyper-controlling for awhile, so the likelihood that he’s been abusive towards his family for awhile is high even if the stress of losing Bonnie has made him even more Toedad than usual.
Okay, but Becky is seriously concerned. Some part of her brain went: “Oh no, not again.” and now she’s trying to keep the bowl of petunias from hitting the ground.
By only the thinnest of margins, too. Holding a rictus smile to keep from completely collapsing. I think we might be seeing that Becky collapse I was expecting at the end of the weekend, right here.
Discussion (294) - “Stock”
Ana Chronistic
except maybe of embarrassment, jeez
TheAnonymousGuy
Lesbian immortality stare activate!
Aeron
Care Bear, STARE!
Deanatay
Care. Bear. GLARE.
Griiins
ACTIVATE!
Gareth
I need to use this information to achieve immortality for myself. Now who is the closest person to me who is also a lesbian *checks*. It’s my mother in law…. Well I’m screwed, lol
Vicmaze
Mirror magic Maybe?
NelC
Lesbians get all the best powers.
Slartibeast Button, BIA
But what if Becky gets distracted by the “safe and warm forever“?
Ana Chronistic
she can totes stare at those
Dalrint
It is probably pretty hard to kill yourself with someone just staring at you. Forever.
Dafydd
Not if you kill her first…
Plasma Mongoose
Well that’s one way to end a chapter.
Wheelpath
And then Dina becomes a super villain next chapter?
Reltzik
She’s already got a super-power of stealth and a special dino-fighting combat style. But…. what sort of villainous deeds would she be motivated to do?
inqntrol
Bring dinosaurs back to life and unleash them on the world?
HMRC4EVR
If so, she and Mezagog from Power Rangers Dino Thunder would get along quite well.
Andorxor
With her stealth she is the white dino ranger
Plasma Mongoose
It would involve feathers.
Reltzik
Not necessarilly. She might just bring back anklyosaurus.
Gamaran Sepudomyn
Ankylosaurs may have had armpit feathers, actually.
Dana
Killing someone is a super effective way to get them to stop staring at you.
Reltzik
Meh, there’s fewer legal ramifications if you just blind them. And it’s less morally problematic.
….. well that’s TECHNICALLY TRUE….
butts
yessss, precioussssss…. murder EVERYONES…
butts
Funny how I have no qualms about making jokes about murder, and yet I try to avoid jokes about suicide.
Disloyal Subject
Murder’s usually more fun.
The Other Mike
And you can do it more than once.
Dean
What about jokes about murder-suicide?
Darkoneko
The audience died of boredom.
George Wiman
If you don’t mind listening to THE BEATING OF THAT INFERNAL HEART…
Deanatay
Sexy Lesbian Murder-Suicide.
LimeSheep
oh good, theyre both under observation
Brute
nice
butts
Oh, jeez, Becky…
butts
(the hovertext stole my original joke)
Stephen R. Bierce
Whose pot is blacker than her kettle? (Paraphrasing the theme to The Black Adder)
inqntrol
She has good intentions, but still, staring at someone in that way is creepy.
butts
Beautiful cinnamon roll too good for this world, too pure
Fart Captor
But her sad puppy-dog eyes are so saaaad
Guairdean
Becky’s Mom was out if sight for a while.
AGV
Aaand that’s dark, but sadly true
Porto
That…..
is sad. Like…really, really damned sad.
Leorale
I agree.
Becky still kinda blames herself for her mom’s suicide…?
Fart Captor
I think that not having a chance and/or not being able to do anything to prevent it was really painful for her, so she really can’t bare the thought of not being able to do anything here.
I don’t think there’s been anything to suggest that she blames herself (so far, at least), though it’s possible she blames herself for not seeing some kind of red flag that would have allowed to do something before it was too late, whether or not there actually were any signs she could have noticed. 🙁
Leorale
That would also make sense. Must watch for super-hidden and possibly non-existent indications that you’re gonna die!
I know a highschooler who is privy to his dad’s suicidal ideation. That’s gotta be intense.
Tan
From my own experience, when you lose someone you care about to suicide, there is ALWAYS an aspect of blaming yourself, albeit not necessarily in so many words. If only I’d listened better. If only I’d picked up on signs quicker. If only I’d been there with them at that exact moment. If only I’d said one more exact right thing, given one more hug, made them smile one more time.
At least that’s how I feel, and I’ve only ever lost friends. I can only imagine the feeling if it were immediate family.
Nobody
*hugs*
Cerberus
*hugs* And yeah, suicide is one of those things that trigger survivor’s guilt and self-blame hard, because it’s really easy to pour over your actions or their actions for those little moments “you should have seen” or “should have been there for”. I kick myself enough for missing attempts by friends and students of mine, so I can’t imagine how much it must hit to feel one missed a completed suicide.
And for Becky it is so much worse, because a) she lived with her mom and spent almost all of her time with her being educated and raised, so the windows for Bonnie to have taken those pills and to have taken those pills long enough to have died because of complications in the hospital must have been very small, b) Becky obviously cared a ton in those ghost panels at her house for her and Bonnie was probably the thing that protected her from as much of Toedad’s abuse that she could by accepting the brunt of it, so losing her mom wasn’t just losing her mom, but also the only thing that protected her from her dad, and c) She was the one to find her and it was too late. Like, holy shit, to be the one to find her, to think you had a chance, that you may have found her in time, she’s at the hospital and she’s hanging on by a thread, and then, nope, no you didn’t? Holy crap, that’d break a lot of people.
No wonder her mask is fully cracked by the last panel.
Amazi-Stool
I find that explanation a little bit too – static for the Toedad side.
Bonnie’s death definitely had a lot of impact on Toedad and may be the final impulse that pushed him over the cliff.
He was a fundie nut before the death of his wife, but visit a school campus with a rifle presumably would not have happened then.
Cerberus
Oh, I think he definitely got worse. But I think him striking Becky was too casual and easy for it to be something that only started once Bonnie had died. Plus, it’s canon that he’s been hyper-controlling for awhile, so the likelihood that he’s been abusive towards his family for awhile is high even if the stress of losing Bonnie has made him even more Toedad than usual.
Fart Captor
What?! How they manage to pry her hand away?
Mollyscribbles
The hospital would have access to the jaws of life.
Stephen R. Bierce
That and hand sanitizer is a good solvent versus super glue. I learned that just recently.
Reltzik
For that matter, the nurses could just inject a numbing local.
…. that or they know all the pressure points.
Woobie
Becuz alcohol.
I use 91% with rubber gloves to get sticker residue and such off.
Amazi-Stool
The super-glue she used is called “metaphor”!
Glitchmebaby
Hospitals would love to hire becky. If she never stops starin the patients with die
Kris
Becky….creepy.
John
Okay, Becky, there’s comforting, and there’s creepy. Comforting is waaaaaay over there. This? This is creepy.
Just Me
And annoying.
SgtWadeyWilson
Okay, but Becky is seriously concerned. Some part of her brain went: “Oh no, not again.” and now she’s trying to keep the bowl of petunias from hitting the ground.
John
Does that make Ruth the whale?
SgtWadeyWilson
Umm… I haven’t really thought this metaphor through quite that far…
…maybe?
ScarvesandCelery
And what’s this liquid inside this bottle? I’ll it alcohol. I wonder if we’ll be friends…
FireSTK
Intentions or not, Billie’s reaction reads creeped out.
Solenoid
Becky :C
Solenoid
Note the extra large white spot in her eyes. The lights’ reflection. She’s holding back tears.
Cerberus
By only the thinnest of margins, too. Holding a rictus smile to keep from completely collapsing. I think we might be seeing that Becky collapse I was expecting at the end of the weekend, right here.
Doctor_Who
This same logic can be applied to the Schrodinger’s Cat experiment.
butts
“watched photons never commit suicide”
WhoWasI